Monday, November 22, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Neverending White Lights - The World is Darker feat. Melissa Auf Der Maur
Now here is the Video I was in with some good friends of mine, Birds of Wales!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
I feel like my search for the so called Mr. Right is never ending. It’s always the same story over and over again. Look boys, I’m not dumb, I’ve heard it all before. Every single story about why we can’t be together, yep, I’ve heard it. These are just excuses. The bottom line is “he’s just not that into you!” It does work both ways though, I may not be that into you either.
I’ve loved and been loved. So let’s start at the beginning. There was a guy who loved me like no other person ever has. He became an emotionally abusive drug addict who I am proud to report is healthy and happy now. There was a musician, another musician, an actor, a couple more actors after that, another musician….and a smattering of random people in between. Seeing a trend here?! Lucky for me I got over my musician and actor thing. I mean, I can’t say that guitar players are still not a weakness! Yummy!!! Many of those people listed there I did in fact meet online. We’re talking MySpace, LavaLife and Facebook. Some of them were through work and random outings in the city.
After a year of being out of the city and not meeting anyone, I decided I should maybe get back into the swing of things and start dating again. I mean how else am I going to meet my future husband? It’s not like one day there will be a knock at the door and Mr. Right is standing there with a bouquet of flowers (only in my dreams). And, let’s talk about something for a sec, where is the romance? I for one have never experienced that in my life. Little gestures, like giving flowers? Two people have ever given me flowers. Just saying.
Now once I realized nobody was gonna come knocking at my door, that’s where PlentyOfFish came in. I had no idea what I was in for. What an interesting and bumpy ride it has been.
Now let’s see if I can even remember everyone….first dude I met didn’t look a damn thing like his photos. I was so turned off when he walked up to me I thought I might vomit. Then I told myself I was being dumb and to smarten up and put a smile on. It did no good, the meeting lasted all of 15 minutes; not even his hot BMW could save it.
Second guy was alright, we had a nice conversation over dessert, but there was zero chemistry, he was too conservative, and he was about to go on vacation. This is where I should also mention that I have what I call a “Vacation Curse.” It’s happened so many times over the years. I’ll be dating someone, they will go away on vacation and I will never hear from them again. Let me see, it’s happened…too many times to count. It’s weird. It comes down to the fact that upon reflection, they decided that I’m not what they want or they are “too busy” for a relationship right now. Give me a break.
Third guy was a good guy I think. We spent a gorgeous summer day going for brunch, walking around High Park and the Waterfront. Again zero chemistry. There is also no way I would fit with his lifestyle. It was a lovely day though. After that I met someone who I dated for about a month. Chemistry was there and I think I got a little too excited that I finally found someone I could connect with. It didn’t take long to see his issues, they were loud and clear. Note to self: Don’t ever go for someone who isn’t over their ex. Turns out he had just gotten out of an over three year relationship. He turned into a royal jerk. I was so done with it. I really liked his mom though. Too bad.
On to the next! This guy swept me off my feet!!! He was everything the previous guy wasn’t. He did everything I had ever wanted a guy to do after we met. Too bad it only lasted about a week. There was about 3 dates in that week. He called. He text. He would say he couldn’t wait to see me. I just can’t believe I fell for it. Shame on me. Next thing you know he’s cancelling a date (I KNEW he would cancel…my super power intuition is dead on when it kicks in) and I never hear from him again. I took it unexpectedly hard. I couldn’t explain it. I still can’t really. It had only been a week and a half between the first date and the cancelled one. All I can say is there are some people who just get to you…and he just got to me.
It’s funny though, I was really hesitant to even go on the first date. I thought about cancelling it myself. It really bugged me that he was on POF more than any person I had ever seen. I knew that meant bad things for me. I don’t want serial daters. I don’t want someone who is always looking for the next best thing. That’s what is SO hard about online dating. There are so many people to choose from…right at your finger tips.
So what did I go and do after that guy? I said screw POF! It’s all serial daters, there are no serious people on here. I joined…now this is embarrassing…ugh…eHarmony. Don’t judge me lol! I have nothing more to say about that, other than it’s the biggest waste of money ever. I was actually insulted by my so called “matches.” I still have one more payment before I can cancel that sucker. Oi vey.
Well wouldn’t you know what happens not long after I join eHarmony in order to find someone who actually wants something lasting? I meet a guy from POF who actually looks at the whole thing the same way I do. He doesn’t go online when he is dating someone. One person at a time. I don’t know how true this turned out to be with me, but I for one stopped going on. I didn’t check my messages for over a month. It felt awesome.
This guy had many of the qualities that I am looking for, he was great to talk to, we agreed on many important things, had some things in common. But, I was never certain about him. We didn’t have that spark. After what happened to me before, I was beginning to wonder if my expectations were too high. Was it right of me to expect sparks instantly? I thought about many couples that I know, and some didn’t want to date when they met, some were friends for years and things like that. So I thought ok, maybe I should just go with the flow and see if this develops? It never did. I think we felt the same way the entire time. It took like 5 weeks for it to end though. I didn’t end it. He did…while I was on the hwy driving to his place. Needless to say I got off at the next exit.
Now here is where I have an issue. This is where I get pissed off. Stop lying to me. Stop making excuses. I don’t need to hear it. I may go along with what you are saying, but I know better. I got the same old story about being too stressed and just not being in the dating mindset. He also said that he made a promise to himself that he would have worked out these issues before he got into seeing someone again. SOOO how is it that the very next day he is on a dating site looking for someone new? I’m just annoyed because so many boys think I fall for their stories. I don’t. I do know better. Here’s the bottom line with this one, we just weren’t that into each other. Although, he was pretty awesome, I wish him the best.
The great thing is, I do learn from every experience. Every guy teaches me something new. As hard as it is at the time, I’m better for it.
For the record, I did realize that my expectations for a “spark” are not too high. Like my October issue of Cosmo says, “If there’s no spark, forget it. There needs to be a sizzle!” Hell ya!!!
So, will I ever meet my Mr.Right? I most certainly will.
To be continued….
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Lyrics to Taylor Swifts new song, Mine
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts
I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now
Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
This is what I thought about:
Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."
You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it
I can see it now
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
"When you paint success pictures in your mind, you initiate an inner process whereby your attitudes, hopes, aspirations, and enthusiasm are elevated in response to an image of a more promising future. Every person who aspires must first sell themselves hope, the promise of a better life."
1917-1986, Author of The Magic In Your Mind
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Last weekend I was given the opportunity to get out of town (away from the G20 Summit) and head up north for some camping. Now, if you know me, you know I have never camped a day in my life. Pretty sure I could never even make it through a night in a tent in my own backyard when I was a kid. Well, I have grown up since then, and camping didn't sound at all like a bad idea to me. I felt like being adventurous.
To make this a little more spontaneous, I was not even at home when I was asked to go. In fact, I was laying poolside enjoying the sun with my mom and Nana. I had minimal things on me, so in order to go camping I ran to WalMart and spent a crap load on clothes and on everything I would need. I was having a blast! I mean I had never been camping, and to go for the first time unprepared?! My best friend had a good laugh at me. I believe her words were: "You? Camping??? Hahahaha!" Thanks! I love you too. haha.
To spare you all of the details, it rained. Hard. We decided not to camp after a 20 minute boat ride during a torrential downpour. I learned not to use the blue bag I had my clothes in as it turned my clothes blue when it got soaked. My hands were also blue. I looked like smurf. All I could do was laugh at my first attempt at camping. Despite the pouring rain, being soaked, and having blue dye everywhere, I was actually enjoying every minute of it.
Instead of just packing it in and going back to the city, 2 of us decided to stay at his mom's house (a very beautiful one I might add) on a nearby lake. The house was on Sturgeon Lake. This has meaning to me. My old family cottage was located on the exact same lake, and this is where I had spent many of my childhood summers. We drove through Bobcaygeon, the lovely, lovely Bobcaygeon. Just going through the town brought back so many memories. It was just how I remembered it. The locks where all of the boats would come in, my favourite candy store where they also had the best frozen yogurt...I was a little overwhelmed with emotion. I didn't realize what seeing this place again would do to me. I realized very quickly that I missed it. It had been about 10 years since I've been up there.
So, the weekend didn't turn out as planned whatsoever, but it was a great one. I really enjoyed being out of the city and somewhere so peaceful and relaxing. I definitely need to have that in my life again, even if that means just renting a cottage for the week. It's definitely worth it. So yes, I have made the decision that cottage life is going to be part of my life.
Maybe I'll even give camping another shot sometime! I'll just make sure there is no rain in the forecast first!
"Successful people decide how they are going to live; they are not victims of circumstance. In good times or bad times, they know where they are going and they know that they are going to get there."
"Don't concern yourself too much with how you are going to achieve your goal - leave that completely to a power greater than yourself. All you have to do is know where you're going. The answers will come to you of their own accord, and at the right time."
1921-1989, Syndicated Radio Announcer and Author
"You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay? Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change."
1930-2009, Author and Speaker
"Enthusiasm is one of the most powerful engines of success. When you do a thing, do it with all your mind. Put your whole soul to it. Stamp it with your own personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your object. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
1803-1882, Essayist, Philosopher and Poet
At the end of next week, I'll post my new weekly favourite.
Monday, May 31, 2010
On Saturday I opened my brand new book, "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert, put on my bikini and went outside to read it. I never thought I would read this book, I mean I had seen it on book shelves for ages. But, when I saw Julia Roberts on Oprah last week talking about her role in the movie adaptation coming out in August, I was intrigued. Later in the show the author was also on and at that point I knew I needed to buy this book. I wanted to read about her year of self discovery in Italy (eat), India (pray) and Indonesia (love). I did exactly what they wanted me too! I am already hooked!
I made sure to slather on the SPF 30, but that wasn't good enough. I have some really weird looking burns! Welcome to Summer! haha
On Sunday I decided that it would be a perfect day to head to Toronto and go for a walk with some good company. That's one of things I miss most about living downtown, going for walks on beautiful sunny days. So we started out at a really nice little place in Bloor West Village (looooveee) for Brunch and then walked through the lovely High Park. We walked through the park until we were at the Lakeshore. So we got some ice cream and walked along the beach. I don't know who thinks its a good idea to swim in Lake Ontario?! But there was plenty of that going on!
My feet were sore and a little blistered by the end of the day, but I don't even care. These are the summer days that I live for.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
The video is being a pain in the butt to post on this site, its way too big for my format even at the smallest size. So I have posted it over at www.twogirlsandablog.com
You can also check out their website: http://www.birdsofwales.co
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Train - Hey Soul Sister
Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet
Tmbaland Ft. Katy Perry - If We Ever Meet Again
Taio Cruz ft. Ludacris - Break Your Heart
Jason Derulo - In My Head
Usher - OMG
The Script - Breakeven
B.o.B Ft. Bruno Mars - Nothing On You
Daughtry - Life After You
My Brand new fav this week:
B.o.B ft. Hayley Williams (of Paramore) and Eminem - Airplanes Part II
Those are just a few! There are so much more!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Birds of Wales
My good friends in the band 'Birds of Wales' have their album "Belgravia Hotel" hitting store shelves and iTunes Tuesday April 13th. I highly recommend you go out and pick it up. There are tunes that will make you wanna dance (Some People Tell Me) and tunes you just have to listen to as loudly as possible to soak it all in (Tin Soldier). This album has heart! You won't be disappointed! This has been a long time coming, I am so glad it's finally here!
They just came off a brief tour with electro pop band 'Dragonette' and they were nice enough to make a little video of their tour! If you look closely, you might even catch a glimpse of me on set of their music video for "Uninteresting." Check it out!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I became a fan of NBC's The Biggest Loser during season 8 this past September. After the first episode I had to wonder why I never bothered to watch this show before. This is the kind of show I love. It quickly became a show that my family and I watch together every Tuesday night. Anytime that I think I can't do something like lose that last 10lbs, I just have to look at these contestants and see what they have overcome and realize that if they can lose hundreds of pounds, I can lose 10. Too bad the last 10 are the hardest haha!
First off I love the trainers, Jillian and Bob. They balance each other out well on the show. Bob has a tough but positive approach and Jillian is loud and tough and you just do what she tells you. As tough as they both are though, they both have hearts of gold. I see Jillian Michael's posts on Facebook, she is always helping people!!! She has a new show coming to NBC as well, it's called "Losing It." Don't know too much about it right now, just what I read from her posts, but it appears she travels around the US and helps out one family at a time.
So, as part of my 2010 fitness goal I went out and bought a Biggest Loser workout DVD. There were many to choose from, so after much debate I settled on the "Last Chance Workout" knowing full well I was going to get my ass kicked. Just how I like it!
The DVD is set up like this: It's broken down into 6 weeks. You do the workout 6 days a week, which I have yet to do, but I do get my regular gym workout in as well. Each day changes, Monday for example is the Last Chance Workout, and Tuesday is Toning and it continues just like that....until the last week or two when its combined. Its the perfect balance. The beauty of this is its not just cardio. Its actually a full circuit workout. 30 seconds of Cardio and 30 seconds of Strength. I got this from a review on Amazon. "It's a "HIIT" workout which is a model for highest calorie burn. Studies have shown that when you increase your heart rate with cardio then keep it elevated while combining toning and strength exercises and utilize some core floor work in modules, you get double the results. Cardio burns calories during the workout but you recover quickly and your heart rate recovers and lowers. However, when you add strength training with cardio, you continue to burn more calories long after the workout is over and also add muscle which increases your metabolism and allows your body to burn more calories even while at rest--although strength burns less calories during the workout. So, combining the two is always going to give you better results and faster results which is the entire premise of the workouts you see on the Biggest Loser."After the first workout I was sore for almost a week! Amazing.
What I also love about this workout is the cast. Its all Biggest Loser contestants, not people who are already ripped. Anytime I feel like quitting I just look at the contestants and when you see Danny for example, the winner of Season 8 and know he lost 239lbs (the most ever on the show), its real motivation to keep going. It helps me when Jillian yells "Don't you dare think about quitting! Do you want get skinny or not? Shut up and do your Mountain Climbers!"
Next Monday I start week 2-3 workouts. Yay!
Friday, April 2, 2010
I have been doing a lot of thinking recently about my career goals and being in this video just proved something to me. I will always be the background performer. Never the talent. As a petite brunette I am constantly looked over. I am just not cut out for TV.
I was placed at the back of the pack and all of the blondes and a stunning edgy redhead were front and centre. That's what happens on set. I have been in several movies/TV shows/music videos in the past and nothing has changed. Now don't get me wrong, I had a blast and enjoyed every minute of being there, this was just a realization...a wake up call.
After they yelled "that's a wrap!" the first AD or producer or something walked up to the stunning edgy redhead and shook her hand and told her what a pleasure it was to work with her (for 30 minutes) and he just praised her hardcore. Then he looked at me and said "thanks." We did the same job. It was at that moment that I realized that things will never change.
Oh well, the video will still be awesome. I am so happy that I was apart of it.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
In the dream I was walking down a hall, I had just been talking to someone, possibly on the phone and there she is standing there. "Shut up!" she says to me out of nowhere. I stopped dead in my tracks and for the first time in my life I stood up to her. I said 'NO! We're 27 and you're still acting like a child? Grow the fuck up!' She said something in response, but I don't remember that part. I should have written about this when first woke up, you know how it is.
If only I had that kind of courage when I was 12. Or 23, when she prank called my family home several times after she saw that I wasn't fat anymore...apparently she didn't like me skinny either. I always hope that karma will kick in someday....
I can honestly say that if someday our paths cross again, I will have the courage to stand up to her if the opportunity presents itself. At least one of us grew up.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
After an hour of getting ready and drinking we headed over to Muzik. Now for anyone who knows me, they know I am not a club person. At all. I have to say though, I really, really liked this place. For starters, ladies free before 10:30, complimentary hair and makeup, a free glass of Champagne, and Strawberries and Chocolate! Bliss!!! The guy who did my hair was absolutely fabulous! He loved what he was doing to my hair so much that he said he wanted to "chew me like bubble gum!" hahaha I can only take that as a good thing. And he gave me a nice Rose when he was done. Another reason I liked this club was that it's 21+ for girls and 25+ for guys. Thank god for that. One of the main reasons I hate clubs is the 19 year olds!
The group of us wearing Fedora's really caught people's attention, we were a hit! It was so much fun!!! I just found it hilarious that so many guys came up and asked what was up with the Fedora's, we would say its a Bacelorette and they would ALL ask "Who's getting married?" haha yesss the girl in all white! Silly boys!
We passed out at Char's around 3:30 in the morning....what a good night! Gotta love a good night out with the girls. Doesn't happen often for me, so I really soak it up when it does!
Now we just have to wonder 'who's next?'Xoxo
Monday, March 15, 2010
Some of the bands I checked out included, Joey McIntyre, Down With Webster, Low Level Flight, illScarlett, Birds of Wales, Our Lady Peace and The Junction. Two Girls and a Blog got a chance to interview Low Level Flight, Stereos, Rick from Finger Eleven, Karl Wolf, Tommy from Hedley and Morgan from Birds of Wales. Unfortunately, there were some planned interviews that didn't happen, illScarlett, Darren from The Salads, USS and Zack Werner. I'm sure we'll definitely be able to get those rescheduled at some point. We also handed out Two Girls and a Blog Condom matchbooks! Boy, those were a hit!
Be sure to check out www.twogirlsandablog.com for our video blogs!
Aside from all of the bands that I love checking out during CMW, there are even more reasons that I love this week so much. It's the environment. You're walking through the Royal York hotel and it's filled with Music Industry people, Musicians, Radio industry people, press from all sorts of media outlets. Everything that I love in one place! I just soak it in while I can, like why spend all day locked in a hotel room when I can be out talking to people and networking? You never know who you're going to run into.
On Thursday as I was heading back into the hotel to get my coat from coat check, I ran into my old teachers and classmates from college. Good ol' Fanshawe Radio! We spent a good hour talking and catching up. That is definitely a highlight of the week for me.
I also kinda learned some things about myself, or maybe it was coming to realizations, admitting things to myself, and showing more signs that I am in fact getting older...
I have never liked pushy crowds at concerts, but lately I really hate them. I don't enjoy being pushed around by drunk people while trying to watch a band that I love. I would much rather stand on the side, just out of the mob and enjoy the music! I injured my knee this week as well, so being in a crowd like that was out of the question. I would have been killed. Just sayin'.
In my job as a cell phone rep for a particular company I get asked all of the time why I don't use Blackberry. It's a simple answer really. When you're surrounded by Blackberry users you're not as important as the 5 other people you're friends are chatting with constantly on BBM, MSN and Facebook. You never ever have peoples undivided attention. I miss the days of real conversations without a phone vibrating every 5 seconds. I miss that like I miss the days of Entertainment Tonight being about Movie/TV stars and not the Gosslin's, Octomom and The Bachelor scandals. But hey, that's just me. (And Mary Hart, she feels the same :)
Music has always been a part of me. I have loved that more than anything my entire life. It's what gets me through the tough times and makes the good times that much better. I would be perfectly happy working in music for the rest of my life. That is where I fit in. Its who I am. I did a lot of thinking about that while watching Our Lady Peace at Massey Hall on Saturday. My love for music overwhelmed me. This is where I should be.
Speaking of OLP, I also learned that their fans are crazier than I ever imagined. It was fantastic!
I learned that it took 4 people to close an ironing board. We have video.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
This year is different though. I am no longer hiding who I am or what I believe in. This doesn’t mean that I am going to go and tell you about all of my readings since 2003. Not gonna happen. I’ll share some tidbits, nothing overly personal though.
My fascination with psychics began with seeing world-famous psychic Sylvia Browne on the Montel Williams Show. She was so amazing, she just blew me away! She was always helping solve crimes, making yearly worldly and celebrity predictions, her accuracy was undeniable. I started reading her books as fast as she was writing them. I’m not even sure how many I own now. One day before she retires, I hope to get a reading from her. That is my goal! That will cost me about $700US and a 6 month wait.
So, at 15 years old I decided I wanted a reading. I found a local psychic that I had heard about through a friend. Her name was Sparkie (I know right). She came to my house and she did a reading in my bedroom for my friend and I. She was definitely not the best, but I can tell you that when she described how my life would be during this current time period, she was dead on. I can still hear her words as if it were yesterday. She was correct about many things. There was something in particular that she said where I was like ‘pfft yeah right!’ I refused to believe it. Then in 2003 when I met with Psychic Nikki she told me the EXACT same thing, almost word for word. I still wasn’t having it. Here’s the thing, we all have choices. We can choose to go down a different path. We can prevent some things from happening by simply making a different choice…this could be something as little as getting a speeding ticket. I do believe though, that if something is truly meant to be, it will be. So if that thing that Sparkie and Nikki both told me does happen eventually, I know I will have no regrets because I always follow my heart. At least that is what I am telling myself.
People always ask me if Psychic Nikki is any good. Well obviously she is or I wouldn’t keep going back! For her readings, we meet at a restaurant downtown Toronto and either have breakfast or lunch and she gives you a reading. It’s very casual and she asks you right up front if you want to hear bad things (like death) or not. If not, then you get a very happy positive reading. Your choice. I always choose to hear the bad too because that’s life, we take the good with the bad.
She’s really good at seeing relationships. She has ALWAYS been right with me. She gives good descriptions of people I date or are going to, she knows if it will last or if we’ll be friends or nothing at all. The ONLY thing I am waiting for is my future husband. He’s out there apparently. She knows what kind of flowers I will have in my wedding. I'm not surprised she said my favourite kind. Then there are moments when she says something that reminds you that she truly is psychic. In my last reading a of couple weeks ago, she says about my future husband, "He's going to buy you a fan. That's weird! Why is that?" I burst out laughing and said 'because I can't sleep without one!' I haven't slept without a fan in my room since 2002. (Sept 3, 2010 - Update: The fan thing happened! I couldn't believe it. It wasn't bought for me, but it was presented that way..and it wasn't my future husband, it was just some guy I dated for a while.)
Aside from that I love hearing about my career and all of the different things she sees me doing. It’s so tough in the industry I love, but I know I can do it, and so does she. I just have to keep networking and doing my thing. Things are going to happen for me. I can’t say that I wasn’t excited when she told me she saw me all over Film Fest, going to parties and such.
I love that she sees the places I will eventually travel. She got Las Vegas last year. She sees me going to Rome, Italy and the Vatican, Hawaii, LA and San Francisco among others.
She is good at random things like what I am going to do to my hair next, tattoos I am going to get, dresses I am going to wear for certain events, cars I am going to drive, things like that.
It’s awesome when you get to check things off your reading that have happened or you’re just checking off a random name that came up. In my 2003 reading I have checked off 87 names, places and predictions. I am too lazy to count the rest. But that gives you a good idea.
Going to a psychic has sort of become my therapy. This year I really needed peace of mind, and she gave that to me. I wasn’t sleeping well before I went, my mind just never shut up. I am sleeping really well now, thankfully. Nikki used a really great word to describe my life at the moment: Stabilizing. I am stabilizing my life. I really couldn’t have put it better myself.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Alright I am getting fed up with all this Taylor Swift backlash crap that has been going on since the Grammy Awards!
I just don't see what is so bad about a sincere and talented young lady having all her dreams come true? She's worked hard for it. She writes her own music, she sings the truth, she is actually a positive role model for young girls everywhere!
Had she not won Album of the Year, this would not be an issue. Personally, I would have given Album of the Year to Lady Gaga, but really everyone in that category was just as deserving. They all had great albums, they all had an amazing year. Don't blame Taylor, she didn't vote for herself.
Sure, her performance was a little shaky. She had an off night, it happens, it's just a shame it happened during her Grammy performance. They have come out and said it was technical difficulties, that she couldn't hear the whole mix in her earpiece. Who knows if that's true. Whatever. In case you weren't listening, there were technical difficulties ALL NIGHT LONG! It was driving me crazy! It was one bad performance, get over it. If you have ever listened to her sing live before, you know she can sing. I've been listening to people call in on the radio and complain about her, radio announcers bashing her...blah blah blah. The media is just adding fuel to the fire. As usual.
Honestly, just be glad Miley Cyrus didn't win album of the year.
Photo: Steve Granitz/WireImage
Last week I went to the gym 5 days in a row. I really mixed up my routines and the intensity. I have taken the weekend off from the gym as my body does need to rest once in a while. I may or may not have had a Blizzard from DQ on Friday night, and more pizza than I should have last night....back to the gym on Monday!
I spent some time with an old friend this weekend too! I always really enjoy those visits. Just hanging out eating pizza is enough for me.
I finished reading Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. The movie version opened this Friday. I am still debating whether or not to go see it, its a good book, but its definitely not his best work. I bet the actors are better than the material and that could make it worth it. I liked The Last Song a lot more, but Miley Cyrus is the lead in that movie opening April 2nd. I just can't see her doing that character any justice whatsoever. Anyways, I will soon be reading Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol. My sister just has to finish it and give me my book back first.
I found a nice Rice Salad recipe that I am going to attempt this week. We'll see how that goes. Whenever I am looking for cool recipes for dinners and such, I always end up looking at healthy baking instead! I love baking!!! I'm going to attempt some Gluten free baking recipes in the near future too.
Two Girls and a Blog are making some progress in our preparation for Canadian Music Week 2010. We have our official site up and running. We have an official email. We are getting our very own Video Camera, it will be Pink of course. We have business cards in the works as well. We might just be considering registering our business too. We have the hotel booked for the week and already have 5-6 interviews set up. We're doing good. I am very pleased. We're also going to look hot as hell. Just saying.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I have decided that I am going to share most of them, and then add some new ones for 2010. I am thinking that maybe, just maybe, if I write it down here it will be like being accountable to someone? I am going to give it a shot!
Here is my original list of goals:
This is regarding my home business with Usana Health Sciences
- Reach the level of Achiever by the end of December
- Dedicate at least one full day per week to Usana
- Attend Convention in 2010 - Get the Early Bird Special (I can still do that one!)
- Take a minimum of one fitness class per week
- Get back into Pilates
- Make one new healthy/organic recipe per week
- Connect with old friends more often
- Keep room/workspace organized
There you have it. As you can you probably tell there is an overall theme of health and wellness; that is because this is a large part of my life. About 5 years ago now I began my weight loss journey. I lost 30lbs in total. To some that is not a whole lot, but on my small frame, 30lbs makes all the difference in the world.
What some people may not realize, is that keeping the weight off takes a lot more work than actually losing it! I have to be very careful about what food I put into my mouth and how much exercise I get. Not to mention that I have serious digestion problems and if I eat too much bread or even ice cream (Gluten and Dairy), my stomach begins to look like that of a malnourished child in Africa. I wish I was exaggerating, but I'm not. It's really annoying. I spend my life figuring out what I can and cannot eat. The more natural the better!
Over the years I have become very passionate about health, nutrition and weight loss. After my successful weight loss I worked at Herbal Magic as a Health Counselor. It was wonderful to be able to help people reach their goals.
I learned to love exercise too. 7am Bootcamp? Bring it on!!!! I learned to love the burn! I'll never forget having to walk home through the streets of downtown Toronto after my first Bootcamp class, my legs were noodles! I must have looked so ridiculous, but I felt amazing! I also couldn't move for a week.
Now that I have a job that takes up much of my time, I have my small home business on the side with Usana Health Sciences. You get what you put into it. I have been putting my other job first, but I fully intend on keeping my business and slowly building it. I believe in it 100%. By the way, if you ever need some amazingly awesome Vitamins and Supplements contact me! I can hook you up! ;)
Now for my 2010 Goals that I will definitely add to as the year progresses:
- Dedicate at least one day a week to Usana
- I will attend Convention in August.
- Keep in touch with old friends
- Make new friends
-- Two Girls and a Blog are going to be a CMW hit this year! (We are working on big interviews, a new website, Twitter is up and running, hiring a Videographer, Business cards etc)
- I will achieve the body I want this year. (I am already working really hard! Off to a great start)
- Be comfortable in a Bikini by Summer (goes hand in hand with the previous post)
- Travel to at least one more place on my travel destination list (Already hit up Las Vegas!!!!)
- At some point I want to start dating again, I would like a relationship. One where I am NOT settling and they have most, if not all of the qualities I am looking for (as of right now I am not actively looking, but I do want to meet a good guy!!! There's gotta be one out there right?!?!)
- Laugh a lot
- Make new and healthy/organic recipes as often as possible
- Read lots (Currently reading Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. Up next is The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown)
- Practice my craft more often
This year I am going to be more positive and just love life. Last year was shit. 2010 is going to be different. I am making 2010 different! Nobody wants to see the Scerina that existed last year. Especially me.
Now that I have made my goals public, lets see how well I do at keeping them. Time will tell. I am now accountable to you, whoever you are.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
When the clock struck midnight ringing in 2009, I was happy. Life was good. 2009 was going to be my year!
I was wrong.
So begins what I have come to learn was my year of self discovery. I have learned what I want and what I need, and what I don’t. I have grown up more than any other year in my 20’s; I have…showed signs of aging…which is terrifying, I have had my heart broken and I have broken hearts. I have witnessed true love at its finest. I now know who my true friends are. I have learned just how strong I am, and I have learned how to be happy with what I have.
So, it only took about one week into the year for my world to started crumbling around me. The recession was in full swing and drastically affecting my sales at work. How was I going to survive this one? How was I going to pay my $1200 rent? I started stressing.
A week or two into the New Year I was dumped by someone my gut told me not to fall for right from the get go. At the time though, I just wanted somebody to like me and was inevitably won over by charm and great acting.
I am not even scratching the surface with the details of everything that happened there, I could probably write a novel about it if I tried, but I am not going to humiliate him…even if it is so very tempting! I did learn a heck of a lot from this experience though, and I guess that’s the entire point of relationships, whether they work out or not.
During this time period when you know, typically you need your girlfriends most, I was alone. Someone very close to me was getting into her own relationship, which of course is all good normally. I didn’t like this guy. He terrified me. This wasn’t news to anyone at the time. Something just bugged me about him. I was even having nightmares about this person and would wake up in tears. Unfortunately, my fears were falling on deaf ears…understandably though because I mean why would you if you had feelings for someone listen to someone who just had a bad feeling about them? I would like to say that I would never let a guy come between best friends, but if that relationship had continued, I would have lost my best friend. I am sorry for that, but we couldn’t survive it. I felt validated when I found out that I wasn’t the only person who had this bad feeling about the guy. She did eventually come to her senses though and dump him. She is a smart girl and knows she deserves so much more than him! Oh, and as it turns out, he IS a crazy psycho stalker! We can only hope we’ve seen the last of him. Now I feel like since we did survive that, and man that was tough, we can survive anything. It’s trying times like these that only make you stronger. I know we still frustrate the hell out of each other sometimes, but we’re a team and we ROCK, like we really do kick major ass! Love you!
Next up for my big changes of ’09 was having to leave my beloved downtown condo after 3 years. It was heartbreaking. Absolutely heartbreaking! Over the 3 years that I lived on my own in my little condo, I built a life for myself. I did sacrifice a lot to be able to live there, and I could not have done that for as long as I did without my family. I am so lucky to have the family that I do, and I do not take them for granted. I know what I have is rare. I remember the day that I was brave and finally admitted to myself that I couldn’t live there anymore. It was time to move home, save my money and work on getting out of debt. I would say that this was the hardest thing I have ever done. To some, a move is no big deal, but to me it was. I moved there in February 2006 to make my dreams come true…I was just a small town girl with big city dreams. On March 30, 2009 I moved out. Who’s futon was Jenny gonna crash on now?! That futon was second home to so many! Sigh. Over the years I made progress, but never quite got there, so having to move felt like having to give up. I felt like a failure. It took me a while to realize that I wasn’t a failure, but that I just needed come up with a different game plan, take a different approach, since what I was doing wasn’t working. It doesn’t matter if I am here in Caledon or in my condo downtown Toronto, I can make my dreams come true wherever I am. I am also still NOT listening to all the naysayers who think I am delusional in thinking I can have the career that I want. I am not going to listen to the jaded people who have been in the biz for years and hate their jobs so they try to deter me from getting into it.
Once I moved back home it was time to heal, but in order to completely do that there was still one big thing that I had to do. I quit my job. It had sucked the life out of me. I had learned all that I was going to from it. I grew so much from that job and faced lots of my fears. It was time to move on. Quitting that job was such a freeing experience. I felt the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders. I slept fantastic that night. I’ll never forget the people who helped me tremendously with that job: Lisa, Craig, Yehuda, Serge, Signe, and Owen to name a few. Thank you guys!
It took me a while to trust a guy again, but it happened. At the time it was just something fun and positive in my life. Just what the doctor ordered. He helped me through many of those though times and for that I am forever grateful. The thing was, I grew up this year and this person has a lot of growing up to do. I had to break a heart. I actually forgot how hard that was, since I hadn’t had to do that in about 4 years. After that, I had to turn someone else down who was 4 years too late, even harder! It may have been too late for that, but I still have a friend for life. I finally understood what I needed in my life and was no longer going to settle. Why should I? I am fantastic!
Through the tough times there are always good times too, I can’t forget to mention some of the best of 2009:
Two Girls and a Blog take on Canadian Music Week – Interviewed Lights, Down with Webster, illScarlett, The Latency and got Gene Simmons on our blog among others! Lights is my personal favourite! Candy burps <3>
Britney’s Circus Tour – I love her and have always supported her. Britney is back!!!!
Being face to face with Lady Gaga and Perez Hilton was pretty neat too!
The 2009 Weddings - Cat & Dave, Krista & Todd, Mike & Tammera, Nancy & Bernie, Sandra & Adam – I have witnessed true love at its finest this year. Each of these couples are so special and all mean the world to me.
The animals at the farm – Chickens who can outrun coyotes, Llama’s who don’t like pickles and will plow through other animals just to spit it back at you (hahaha Daddy!) and smiling horses!
“He’s just not that into you!” Light bulb moment right there. Not sure what took so long. This was a great thing. My mom also told me during the movie that if I ever did anything as crazy as the girl in the movie (as if!) she would throw me in the loony bin! Thanks Mom! Haha
Reconnecting with old friends – Friends for life <3>
The Aussie’s – Wish you were here!
My entire family, immediate and extended
Now here I am, sitting here in my Pj’s reflecting on the year, trying to make sense of it all. Where am I now? I have a great job that has next to no stress and offers me the freedom to do what I need to do on the side. I am healthy. I took an acting class for the hell of it, it was awesome. I have some amazing friends who I love: Jenny, Paul, Eric, Sandra, Krista, Char, Kevin, John…and everyone else! I knew I was finally in a good place when one day I was out and about at work and I sort of got this smile across my face and omg what’s this?! I was happy! I am not where I need to be yet, but I am getting there. Slowly but surely, I am getting there. Like I said at the beginning, I leaned a lot, I grew and I know what I want and what I need. I had to learn lessons more than once in some cases, but I got it. I finally got it.
2010 is going to be my year. Just call it a feeling.