Sunday, January 24, 2010

My Goals

So I was going through some of my stuff and I came across a Goal sheet that I had created for myself back in the fall. Let's just say that out of the 8 things on that list, I lived up to only one of them...and only recently.

I have decided that I am going to share most of them, and then add some new ones for 2010. I am thinking that maybe, just maybe, if I write it down here it will be like being accountable to someone? I am going to give it a shot!

Here is my original list of goals:

This is regarding my home business with Usana Health Sciences
- Reach the level of Achiever by the end of December

- Dedicate at least one full day per week to Usana

- Attend Convention in 2010 - Get the Early Bird Special (I can still do that one!)

- Take a minimum of one fitness class per week

- Get back into Pilates

- Make one new healthy/organic recipe per week

- Connect with old friends more often

- Keep room/workspace organized

There you have it. As you can you probably tell there is an overall theme of health and wellness; that is because this is a large part of my life. About 5 years ago now I began my weight loss journey. I lost 30lbs in total. To some that is not a whole lot, but on my small frame, 30lbs makes all the difference in the world.

What some people may not realize, is that keeping the weight off takes a lot more work than actually losing it! I have to be very careful about what food I put into my mouth and how much exercise I get. Not to mention that I have serious digestion problems and if I eat too much bread or even ice cream (Gluten and Dairy), my stomach begins to look like that of a malnourished child in Africa. I wish I was exaggerating
, but I'm not. It's really annoying. I spend my life figuring out what I can and cannot eat. The more natural the better!

Over the years I have become very passionate about health, nutrition and weight loss. After my successful weight loss I worked at Herbal Magic as a Health Counselor. It was wonderful to be able to help people reach their goals.

I learned to love exercise too. 7am Bootcamp? Bring it on!!!! I learned to love the burn! I'll never forget having to walk home through the streets of downtown Toronto after my first Bootcamp class, my legs were noodles! I must have looked so ridiculous, but I felt amazing! I also couldn't move for a week.

Now that I have a job that takes up much of my time, I have my small home business on the side with Usana Health Sciences. You get what you put into it. I have been putting my other job first, but I fully intend on keeping my business and slowly building it. I believe in it 100%. By the way, if you ever need some amazingly awesome Vitamins and Supplements contact me! I can hook you up! ;)

Now for my 2010 Goals that I will definitely add to as the year progresses:

- Dedicate at least one day a week to Usana

- I will attend Convention in August.

- Keep in touch with old friends

- Make new friends

-- Two Girls and a Blog are going to be a CMW hit this year! (We are working on big interviews, a new website, Twitter is up and running, hiring a Videographer, Business cards etc)

- I will achieve the body I want this year. (I am already working really hard! Off to a great start)

- Be comfortable in a Bikini by Summer (goes hand in hand with the previous post)

- Travel to at least one more place on my travel destination list (Already hit up Las Vegas!!!!)

- At some point I want to start dating again, I would like a relationship. One where I am NOT settling and they have most, if not all of the qualities I am looking for (as of right now I am not actively looking, but I do want to meet a good guy!!! There's gotta be one out there right?!?!)

- Laugh a lot

- Make new and healthy/organic recipes as often as possible

- Read lots (Currently reading Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. Up next is The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown)

- Practice my craft more often

This year I am going to be more positive and just love life. Last year was shit. 2010 is going to be different. I am making 2010 different! Nobody wants to see the Scerina that existed last year. Especially me.

Now that I have made my goals public, lets see how well I do at keeping them. Time will tell. I am now accountable to you, whoever you are.


Saturday, January 23, 2010

Good Riddance 2009

This was first posted on Facebook on December 29, 2009

When the clock struck midnight ringing in 2009, I was happy. Life was good. 2009 was going to be my year!

I was wrong.

So begins what I have come to learn was my year of self discovery. I have learned what I want and what I need, and what I don’t. I have grown up more than any other year in my 20’s; I have…showed signs of aging…which is terrifying, I have had my heart broken and I have broken hearts. I have witnessed true love at its finest. I now know who my true friends are. I have learned just how strong I am, and I have learned how to be happy with what I have.

So, it only took about one week into the year for my world to started crumbling around me. The recession was in full swing and drastically affecting my sales at work. How was I going to survive this one? How was I going to pay my $1200 rent? I started stressing.

A week or two into the New Year I was dumped by someone my gut told me not to fall for right from the get go. At the time though, I just wanted somebody to like me and was inevitably won over by charm and great acting.

I am not even scratching the surface with the details of everything that happened there, I could probably write a novel about it if I tried, but I am not going to humiliate him…even if it is so very tempting! I did learn a heck of a lot from this experience though, and I guess that’s the entire point of relationships, whether they work out or not.

During this time period when you know, typically you need your girlfriends most, I was alone. Someone very close to me was getting into her own relationship, which of course is all good normally. I didn’t like this guy. He terrified me. This wasn’t news to anyone at the time. Something just bugged me about him. I was even having nightmares about this person and would wake up in tears. Unfortunately, my fears were falling on deaf ears…understandably though because I mean why would you if you had feelings for someone listen to someone who just had a bad feeling about them? I would like to say that I would never let a guy come between best friends, but if that relationship had continued, I would have lost my best friend. I am sorry for that, but we couldn’t survive it. I felt validated when I found out that I wasn’t the only person who had this bad feeling about the guy. She did eventually come to her senses though and dump him. She is a smart girl and knows she deserves so much more than him! Oh, and as it turns out, he IS a crazy psycho stalker! We can only hope we’ve seen the last of him. Now I feel like since we did survive that, and man that was tough, we can survive anything. It’s trying times like these that only make you stronger. I know we still frustrate the hell out of each other sometimes, but we’re a team and we ROCK, like we really do kick major ass! Love you!

Next up for my big changes of ’09 was having to leave my beloved downtown condo after 3 years. It was heartbreaking. Absolutely heartbreaking! Over the 3 years that I lived on my own in my little condo, I built a life for myself. I did sacrifice a lot to be able to live there, and I could not have done that for as long as I did without my family. I am so lucky to have the family that I do, and I do not take them for granted. I know what I have is rare. I remember the day that I was brave and finally admitted to myself that I couldn’t live there anymore. It was time to move home, save my money and work on getting out of debt. I would say that this was the hardest thing I have ever done. To some, a move is no big deal, but to me it was. I moved there in February 2006 to make my dreams come true…I was just a small town girl with big city dreams. On March 30, 2009 I moved out. Who’s futon was Jenny gonna crash on now?! That futon was second home to so many! Sigh. Over the years I made progress, but never quite got there, so having to move felt like having to give up. I felt like a failure. It took me a while to realize that I wasn’t a failure, but that I just needed come up with a different game plan, take a different approach, since what I was doing wasn’t working. It doesn’t matter if I am here in Caledon or in my condo downtown Toronto, I can make my dreams come true wherever I am. I am also still NOT listening to all the naysayers who think I am delusional in thinking I can have the career that I want. I am not going to listen to the jaded people who have been in the biz for years and hate their jobs so they try to deter me from getting into it.

Once I moved back home it was time to heal, but in order to completely do that there was still one big thing that I had to do. I quit my job. It had sucked the life out of me. I had learned all that I was going to from it. I grew so much from that job and faced lots of my fears. It was time to move on. Quitting that job was such a freeing experience. I felt the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders. I slept fantastic that night. I’ll never forget the people who helped me tremendously with that job: Lisa, Craig, Yehuda, Serge, Signe, and Owen to name a few. Thank you guys!

It took me a while to trust a guy again, but it happened. At the time it was just something fun and positive in my life. Just what the doctor ordered. He helped me through many of those though times and for that I am forever grateful. The thing was, I grew up this year and this person has a lot of growing up to do. I had to break a heart. I actually forgot how hard that was, since I hadn’t had to do that in about 4 years. After that, I had to turn someone else down who was 4 years too late, even harder! It may have been too late for that, but I still have a friend for life. I finally understood what I needed in my life and was no longer going to settle. Why should I? I am fantastic!

Through the tough times there are always good times too, I can’t forget to mention some of the best of 2009:

Two Girls and a Blog take on Canadian Music Week – Interviewed Lights, Down with Webster, illScarlett, The Latency and got Gene Simmons on our blog among others! Lights is my personal favourite! Candy burps <3>

Britney’s Circus Tour – I love her and have always supported her. Britney is back!!!!

Being face to face with Lady Gaga and Perez Hilton was pretty neat too!

The 2009 Weddings - Cat & Dave, Krista & Todd, Mike & Tammera, Nancy & Bernie, Sandra & Adam – I have witnessed true love at its finest this year. Each of these couples are so special and all mean the world to me.

Donkey :)

The animals at the farm – Chickens who can outrun coyotes, Llama’s who don’t like pickles and will plow through other animals just to spit it back at you (hahaha Daddy!) and smiling horses!

“He’s just not that into you!” Light bulb moment right there. Not sure what took so long. This was a great thing. My mom also told me during the movie that if I ever did anything as crazy as the girl in the movie (as if!) she would throw me in the loony bin! Thanks Mom! Haha

Reconnecting with old friends – Friends for life <3>

The Aussie’s – Wish you were here!

My entire family, immediate and extended

Now here I am, sitting here in my Pj’s reflecting on the year, trying to make sense of it all. Where am I now? I have a great job that has next to no stress and offers me the freedom to do what I need to do on the side. I am healthy. I took an acting class for the hell of it, it was awesome. I have some amazing friends who I love: Jenny, Paul, Eric, Sandra, Krista, Char, Kevin, John…and everyone else! I knew I was finally in a good place when one day I was out and about at work and I sort of got this smile across my face and omg what’s this?! I was happy! I am not where I need to be yet, but I am getting there. Slowly but surely, I am getting there. Like I said at the beginning, I leaned a lot, I grew and I know what I want and what I need. I had to learn lessons more than once in some cases, but I got it. I finally got it.

2010 is going to be my year. Just call it a feeling.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I'm a Blogger now!

Welcome to The Real Scerina!

For the past few months I have been feeling this need to write, so I have decided that I should start a blog. I've spent hours writing in a journal lately as it has been my only outlet for all the crazy things going on in my head. Some of that will remain in my journal pages, but some of it I will post here for anyone to read.

I will be updating The Real Scerina on everyday happenings in my life as well as thoughts and feelings that I decide to share with you. From time to time, I may throw in the odd entertainment related review too!

There will be no hiding from things I used to here. No hiding my beliefs. There will be no BS. Its honest. It's just me.

Happy reading! (I suppose that's appropriate! haha)